He sees the end from the beginning

He sees the end from the beginning.

It is difficult to understand and make sense of things that come at you, when it is from those that are supposed to be within the body of Christ. We all understand and expect the “world” to treat us bad and be harsh on those who claim the name of Christ. But when the very ones who are supposed to be partners in the ministry turn their backs on you and then stab you as you walk away it becomes more difficult.

These past 2 1/2 years has taught me alot. Much of it I didn’t want to learn or never did I expect I would have to encounter. When your best friend (at least I thought so) and senior pastor both lie, manipulate, and falsify to protect themselves it is hard to deal with. The very ones who preach the gospel of Jesus Christ were the very ones who turned on me and my family. I used to believe that cover ups and behind the scene corruption was done only in politics, but to see it in the body of Christ leaves a lasting scar that heals SLOWLY. I do know that He sees the end from the beginning.

I take refuge in several areas:

1.) My wife and best friend has been by my side EVERY day and has been my rock at all times.

2.) My children have been a blessing in so many ways. They have many questions I can’t answer, but they know God is in control and not man.

3.) I was blessed to have great support by my families. Both my physical and spiritual families helped me thru a most difficult time.

4.) And last, but most importantly the full knowledge that God is and has always been in control is what sustains me. I know that nothing has caught him off guard and by surprise. He will hold those accountable for their actions one day.

I know that He is never taken by surprise, for our past, present or future are before Him and in His grip all at once. An emergency to you or me is an opportunity in His overall purpose, a useful occasion for building trust, stretching our faith, teaching us to hope and nurturing our patience.

He sees the end from the beginning and I am thankful for that.

 

Romans 8:24-25

24 For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have?25 But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.

This is known as perspective, the lens through which you choose to look at the things that matter in life.

The question I have to ask myself is, how will I deal with my personal crisis? Will I see it as an emergency or an opportunity? Is it a stumbling block or a steppingstone?

The moment you and I begin to see things through the heavenly lens, the picture becomes bearable, and we find strength.

While I know all of this to be true, there are days where this is VERY difficult to put into practice. I see the hurt in my wife and children. I see the loss of my home. I know our savings account is gone. I know I am not in the ministry and don’t know if I will ever take that step to trust a pastor or church again.

I do know He sees the end from the beginning. This brings me hope.

One of my favorite songs is Forgiven by Matthew West.


It’s the hardest thing to give away
And the last thing on your mind today
It always goes to those who don’t deserve

It’s the opposite of how you feel
When the pain they caused is just too real
It takes everything you have to say the word…

Forgiveness
Forgiveness

It flies in the face of all your pride
It moves away the mad inside
It’s always anger’s own worst enemy
Even when the jury and the judge
Say you gotta right to hold a grudge
It’s the whisper in your ear saying ‘set it free’

Forgiveness, Forgiveness
Forgiveness, Forgiveness

Show me how to love the unlovable
Show me how to reach the unreachable
Help me now to do the impossible
Forgiveness, Forgiveness
Help me now to do the impossible
Forgiveness

It’ll clear the bitterness away
It can even set a prisoner free
There is no end to what its power can do
So let it go and be amazed
By what you see through eyes of grace
The prisoner that it really frees is you

Forgiveness, Forgiveness
Forgiveness, Forgiveness

Show me how to love the unlovable
Show me how to reach the unreachable
Help me now to do the impossible
Forgiveness

I want to finally set it free
So show me how to see what Your mercy sees
Help me now to give what You gave to me
Forgiveness, Forgiveness
Forgiveness, Forgiveness
Forgiveness

I take great comfort knowing that He sees the end from the beginning.

God is not through with me yet. I have NO idea what the future holds, but I know He does.